
Just a little too sad and somber today, and I don't know why. My life is good. I feel like a pillow is smothering out some of the light and goodness I should be feeling. Is that odd? Tallulah is in preschool the bigger girls are both gone from 8 until 2 and I enjoy my "free" time but in the same breath I want to pack us up and move to a place where it is only us. Where time is frozen and we can love each other and the world doesn't keep squeezing in the cracks and pushing us apart a little more every day, but instead I sit here and waste time away wondering how and where to go from here.